I guess some of you expected me to say something earlier? Actually I did write a long post b4 that but didn’t post it up. I really want to make myself cool down 1st b4 throwing some harsh words to you. (But I don’t even know whether you care already.)
From rage turns disappointments and sadness…
I realized I m not actually angry with those 5 pple who stood, but total disappointment.
Becos those 5 are not juz the strength of the team but a few are pple I trusted so much ONCE. I thought I can carve a future, create a history with these pple. Never have I thought they are actually so selfish to ditch me, ditch all those who wants to fight. Never have I thought they r the last person I can rely on. Never have I thought the 1 to kill the dream of the whole team (senior’s hope inclusive) is not our opponents, not the school system but the least expected, u gals! If you gals did not want to fight, then why have you gals given me the false impressions previously?
I waited so long for this combination to meet again but little did I expect the passions to b diminished. The change is scary…
Seeing that you gals didn’t feel anything, any urgency for the standards, and any guilt for letting the rest of the teammates down is really scary! Suddenly I see no future. I see n future for the seniors previously but I was never afraid. Becos I know they will fight their best and not regret. The scary part abt you gals now it’s like I’m dealing wif people of no feelings for others. I stayed becos of sentiments. Now it seemed to be gone!
I thought you gals are worth much more than the very much higher pay that UWC is offering me. I thought the common goals we used to share, the sentiments, the attachments, the good times, and the bad times are priceless. Ended up I guess we price our feelings differently? U may b priceless to me but obviously you priced yourselves as much to b thinking for the team.
Can anyone please tell me whatever I m thinking/feeling r all wrong? For once I really wished for someone to tell me in my face that I m wrong wrong wrong! For once I wish someone can tell me I shouldn’t regret my decision...
i was so bad mood yesterday dealing with that irritating, oh so irritating idiot at work!! really spoil my mood for the day man!! couldn't even cheer up even at my fav training ground. u r such a fucking asshole of a pig!!
rushed to darts after that. sian-ed cos annie helped me pack my least-favourite food, fried rice! luckily it comes with a nice chicken wing. however, all the foul mood got chased once i started the dame. initially we lead 3-1 in the game..den 3-3 den trail 4-3..and 4-4 and finally the last game. yay! so happy...our 1st win in the lead. i'm finally playing better & getting my hat trick back too. have been playing badly for the past few weeks. skills really lost w/o training. however, last week when i found out that i m no longer the 2nd best women, i got so agitated and motivated to 1 2 cheong again!! watch out christine..i will get back my position(if i want!)
finally got back my orange today!! sparkling clean on the outside thanks to KIA and reasonably neat inside thanks to my LITTLE BEES! i muz say, still find my very own bi xie car more comfortable and cosy. maybe becos it has more memories? maybe becos it's more squeezy?
tmr match with invictus. hope won't play til buay song again. dunno y but it seems like it's been so long since i play ball when it's juz 1 sunday cancelled. stupid botak-2-b, the not handsome michael lor..use my indoor court invite pple i dunno! bleah!! tue wanted to play oso kena disrupted!
4bia...anybody wanna catch it with me?
When The naggy woman in B1's house nagged again! she left me and i got so bo liao. so i was hopping around in my players' blog and came across tis in jerica's blog. and since i was bo liao, i took it. wah!! my life is sad man!! i really nid to live my life, esp my love life, life with my friends and family and life with alot of $$$~~kooo~~check it out now..the fongsho brothers...This Is My Life, Rated Life: 
6Mind: 
7.1Body: 
7.5Spirit: 6.7Friends/Family: 
4.7Love: 
0Finance: 
3.5Take the Rate My Life Quiz
some questions that i went opps:
1)How many of your grandparents are still alive? initially i put 1...opps, i 4got my maternal side grandma! maybe becos i oni see her once a yr?
2)How many children do you have? when i was abt to put zero...opps, actually strictly speaking i have 2 banana daughters!
3)What is your marital status? no hesitation it's never married...opps, den how did the 2 daughters come abt!! i ain't no virgin mary...but i sure am trying to outwit the computer.
4)Are you gifted in any of these areas? and i ticked off Art Math Computers Sports Cooking....this is juz some of my many talents. opps! =p
the rest is for me to know, for u to find out...i m bored again...no wonder i'm oni a 6! i have nothing to entertain me most of the time!!
simple things can become so complicated.
complicated stuffs can be solved so easily.
C-O-M-M-U-N-I-C-A-T-I-O-N-S
so lacking on and off court yea?
i hope u all see the importance this time and it's time to bring it on to the court too?
i m soooo good at ABC. no matter how i shoot still win!! boring...no fight...
1 song for B2:
ABC giam cai cha low di. low di bo ho jia.
AH-MA PANG SAI HO LI JIA!!!
(my nicest-NICEST cake. MINE! BEE'S!) swee-oh. be jealous!! BEE's CAKE! actually i really can't bear to cut it! kiam-ah long ah!!!! OWE $ PAY $!!! This birthday, there’s no liquor, just a pint of Hoegardeen. No crazy night out, just simple get togethers. However, I really felt so loved by my close 1s this birthday. This is the 1 year I feel most blessed with everyone around me. It’s 1 of the best birthday I’ve ever had.
1stly, I spent it with the most important pple in my life @ this point of life.
2ndly, the celebration stretches 5days.
3rdly, I felt like a pampered child.
And last but not least: I’ve got the nicest-NICEST bday cake ever. Superbly nice! Don’t be jealous! It’s NICE!
Celebration started on wed with hui, serene and yan. They brought me to eat a feast of seafood delicacies becos they know I love crabs! Count-downed for my bday @ TARGETS on thu. Yesterday, the big day. Lunched @ hui’s house as auntie prepared A LOT of my favourite dishes. Went down to school to meet the girls. I guess the surprise is to let me think there’s no celebration? It’s quite obvious I think? But I got a surprise afterall becos I didn’t know how many times I need to b dragged to my car when suddenly close to 30 pple gathered there already the 3rd/4th time I returned from my car.. Then, I received MY nicest cake in the world. NICEST! I felt like a celebrity as everyone were like taking pic of me, the cake, me and cake, cake and me, knife cake and me. 1 question…y didn’t any1 take foto wif me? Y no team foto?? Gosh…I m so lonely in the fotos. Anyway, I’ve got the nicest cake! Played ball with them after that. Got bombed. And balled and went home. I was shocked to see my car being ‘vandalised’!! OMBuddha!!! 
Best chicken wings!! nice pizza,wedges&beer
BESTEST FRIENDS
Ok at this pt of time I tink I’ve already put on 5kg wif all the feasts!! But it’s not over yet.
Today, my Chinese bday, weina booked me 1 day to celebrate 4 me. Abit of sian-ness in between becos she ‘尿床’！gross!!! Went lot1 to watch $ not enough 2. I can’t believe it! Well, it’s not bad lah. Didn’t regret afterall. Wanted to go sakae for dinner but was defeated by the LONG Q. in the end buffeted @ siam kitchen. OMBuddha! I cannot imagine how much I nid to work out to burn all these fats lor. Worse, tmr’s play ball cancelled becos they all wanna watch table tennis finals. Wth, y support china pple who take millions from singaporeans’ pocket!
this is the 1st round. imagine this x3!!!
we stayed demure...until we started eating =p
Anyway tmr…eat again with sis. Last day of celebration will be spent wif her.
i'm not sleeping...
becos i can't sleep...
becos i'm scare...
becos my B2 say she has a REAL BAD NEWS to tell me...
i'm not sleeping...
becos i can't sleep...
becos i'm scare...
becos wat can be worse than B2's result slip?!?!??! oh wow!! how so scary!!!
OH MY BUDDHA!!
olympics basketball
USA : CHINA
101 : 70
so thrashed....
'orbakat' 1on1 basketball
BEE : MICHAEL
5 : 2
so thrashed....
wat a suay suay day! 080808! got into an accident...and orange is like so disfigured!!
sian!! sian!! sian!!
NDP 2006 was exciting for us girls…cos shijia was singing the national day theme of the year. I remember us looking forward to the song, the mtv, the big day.
NDP 06,07 were busy for me as ytss c gals were in the nationals both yrs. My brain couldn’t stop working on their upcoming matches. I still remember that we went for ‘secret training’ on national day itself at nee soon east cc. well, both years’ nationals ended abruptly for me, but not as fast as this year.
3 games only for c div. My worse year ever in my 3yrs coaching career in terms of results.
But, What a boring and meaningless NATIONAL DAY this year. i actualli have a full 5days consecutive break, coach 1 day and break for full 4days again!! and i am not even going overseas!(becos this is really not a period to squander away my $$.)why is it that i got this feeling that B2 will abuse my love by juz training her chin muscle and not studying?? 本来香蕉皮应该是让人家滑倒的。可是香蕉1却自己跌倒了。被绊倒的香蕉1还算是香蕉吗？照顾好自己吧香蕉1！！不要越来越多伤。不好哦~
some decisions to make, some problems to solve!1) shld i go 4 frenly match or dart competiton tis thu?2) wat to wear for qiuping's solemnisation on fri?3) how to produce some superstars in my team?4) wat's wrong wif my team? how to make the team stronger?5) to watch lost4 or heroes 1st?going to be damn free next week. fri free oni i already find it so hard to get through liao..now tue,thu, fri all free..wah, i'll b bored to death!time to book jia for bumming sessions! crazy downloading serials and taiwan matches recently. tudou is cool!!youtube is great! and B2 got DOUBLE-CHIN!!!!!
isn't it gd to have pple going after u??
not gd @ all 4 me...so irritating!!
irwan desperately trying to get me to talk to him after i so obviously ignored him for like many many mths..
fatty coming very strong recently too. aiyoh..can't he tel it's like so impossible? or does he realli wan to jeopardise our frenship?c'mon, spare me bro! leave me alone~I M ALREADY A MOTHER OF 2 OK!!went sengkang. wow, long time never go sengkang cc liao. i wonder y we stopped going thr to dominate. somemore nowadays still downgrade to bully kids!! 2 ex-nationals, 1 all star and 1 fatty vs 2 c boys height not exceeding 155cm and 2 gals sec 4s but not in sch team. hahahaa...cheap thrill. lidat play oso song!they say people r different in the computer and in real life.i tink so too...it's so boring toking to june n jasmine over msn..elayne, shulian and nabilah r more fun in the comp.it's the same for zee n peng. zee equalli funny, peng equalli boring.*if oni we are in the north zone...*but we r not!!c'mon! work harder!!
i made B1 cried today! and i made B2 cried too..
sorry!! i realli didn't mean it.
next time don't point point point and pls dodge,duck,siam ok!
lost our 3rd dart game. haii..sometimes it's so helpless when ur teammates r that lousy. thr's oni so much you can do rite? TEAMWORK: can save a game, can kill it too?
ended quite late cos poor annie kept gg toilet to lai sai..becos of some banana pudding she had earlier on. y would she eat a banana pudding? y oh y? banana by-products r so not nice!
wat's the deal wif fruits today? talkin abt fruits @ sweet talk...got home to see lots of fruits! but then, durian again!! the house has been smelling like durians for the past 2 wks? dun even feel like openin the fridge nowadays. how can my family members eat durians everyday? i really don't understand.
den i saw some crystal pears and MANGOES!! they r so alluring on the altar! too bad oni can eat tonite after offerings.mango nice...mango ice-cream boo~longan nice...almond longan boo~strawberries nice...strawberry anything boo~watermelon nice...watermelon bubble gum boo~lychee nice...lychee jelly boo~durian okok....durian cakes okok but smelly~banana okok...banana pudding boo~so seriously, i tink fruits shld oni b ate fresh! boo to fruits by-products! boo~
