如果可以，我真的也不想发脾气。
如果我不在乎，我想我也不会发脾气。。。
怎么每次大比赛的前夕总会有不愉快的事发生？
Candy 曾经说这是YTSS的一个诅咒。
但当KSS也发生类是的事件后，我想这应该是我的诅咒吧。
真是诅咒吗？还是无形的压力逼得我喘不过气。
总是皇上不急，太监急。自己不想输的心远远超越球员想赢的心。
原来问题一直不在YTSS身上。
其实问题一直出在自己身上。
总是越投入，要求越高，越不能纵容球员的不全心投入。
原来我真得那么希望这次KSS能赢。
却觉得比赛的人也没我用心、没我取胜的心重。
后来才发现自己也会有想放弃这队的一天。
angela asked me: y u looked s if u r really angry wif them?
i replied: I M WAT! i cancelled my sports massage appointment to have lunch wif them since it's a long time i sat down wif them to eat. in the end all made me feel so unwelcomed!
fine! i'll not eat wif them ever again!
bought bread 4 them complain my bread soggy...lend them ankle brace complain my ankle brace no gd...1 help them improve they tel me so many excuses and show me how reluctuant they r... wan encourage them show me that fuck-up emo face...wan tok to them on car ask me drive everybody...wth!!
fine! i'll not mind their business anymore, they die their problem, they lousy their problem!
NOT MY PROBLEM!
becos i m the coach who isn't even welcome to eat wif her players. becos i'm the coach who can't even have a talk wif her players.
n by players i oni mean my females players. my boys r still great!
since jasmine&sheryln kept their words and fulfil their forfeit, i hereby wish that their wish will come true!! wishing is wishing...
the real challenge is: can u perform well in that kind of intensity?? if u can, u can become a better player, a stronger team and a higher chance to fulfil ur wish. ;)
y don't u like listening to my stories...i'm sure my children and grandchildren will love to hear them! =p
wait til the day u no stories to listen...
it's been a LONG LONG time since the teams i coach won some game. finally won 1 today! will i get more?? i ponder...
Oh My Buddha~
i realised i 4got to list the most important '1ST TIME' that happened on sat! that's it's the 1st time my player get selected for national youth! well done man nicole!! JiaoJiao is soo soo soo proud of you. whether or not u made it into the squad ultimately, it's already a big boost to ur bball achievements.
how i wish ur juniors can be as determined as u to become a better player. how i wish ur juniors can fight as hard as u gals to become a better team. how i wish ur juniors bear big dreams like u gals to create a miracle.
i still remember how last time cass plead me to create a miracle..now i gotta plead ur juniors to perform the miracle and they don't seemed moved/motivated at all!
going crazy already...maybe it's time to get DRUNK and 4get everything!!!
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i asked: Now that you have seen Jurong West and Jurong, what do you think?
and so she replied: No hope.
naturally, i'm thinking: so, r we giving up??
today alot of 'FIRST TIME' happened to me!!
1)my 1st time back on court after being out of action for a very long 2mths! i muz say my ankle is still not ok yet(damn sad!). but once step on the court, it's so easy to 4get ur injuries. my teammates & coach were like more gan jiong than me. but it's very difficult to go easy/play relax leh. let me play so little..average 3+ mins a quarter oni. total 15mins? sianzz
2)my 1st time where my team scored until the end of the scoresheet. 160-9! we could easily go into the 2nd score sheet. but decided not to be so bad. scored 26points...oni 16% of total score.not gd enuff. but imagine...my score alone can win the opponent liao. i can oni say i really feel sorry for pple who r lousy. how can pple stand being lousy? i remember my 1st youth cup. kena thrashed 65-2 by combined sch. since then, i told myself i will not b a lousy player! never!! i will not allow my team to be lousy. never!! i will score score score,fight fight fight 4 my team! the next yr, i got into combine sch.
3)my 1st time seeing jss & jwss play this yr
4)my 1st time i'm actually worried abt kss. last time, all i can tink abt is how to let ytss win. now i m realli worried abt how to let kss win. i realli want kss to win. however, deep down i know...ytss always can execute watever i strategise but for kss, they really lack the ability, brains, desires, gung-ho-ness. i admit, I M STRESSSS. i admit, I M NOT VERY CONFIDENT if they continue at this rate. wanling says a general gotta believe in her soldiers that they will fight and they will fight for you and they will win for u. i used to haf great faith in them but they never show me they can fight leh.how??
5)my 1st time being stopped by a traffic police. wth!! u gals really bring me luck..BAD LUCK! no wonder our groupin so lousy...no wonder today my 3rd prize missed by 1 number...no wonder the traffic police handsome but not tall enuff 4 me! june is a glutton! hahaha..super duper dried longans!!
6)my 1st time eating 6 tian qi!! had my dinner @ 12am. ate some dim sum. den sot suggest to order some frog's leg porridge to satisfy cravings. who knows patrick ordered 6!! normally pple order 1,2 if not 3...he ordered 6!!! omg! but gd, juz nice to nourish my ankle! frog legs make ur legs strong!!
7)my 1st time being so broke. peniless in the bank. the cash in my wallet is all i've got. that's like $30?? =.=''
so happy to see my 4angels!!! miss them sooo much!!
wrs c boys realli improved ALOT ALOT! all of them! their hard work really pays off man!! well done boys! i've never see such gd fighting spirit for a long time. jia you jia you!!