new year is like a deja vu to me. hadn't i done these things last week too?
went to scgs bbq. wonder y i'm there? 1stly, baoling invited me. 2ndly, i used to have close contacts with the seniors last time. was 1 of their sparring partner with the national champ team few years back. i cant believe how time flies...those girls r so big now. all in uni, all taller, all more mature and ALL DRIVING!! but y do peishan and i still seems the same? did we not grow? or did we juz grow stagnant?
EAT EAT EAT! FAT FAT FAT! OMG OMG OMG!
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resolutions for 2008:
work hard-i want to stop being poor!!
coach hard-this year is important/special to me. last time maybe?
play hard-haf been very passive in '07. gonna live life to the fullest this yr on.
train hard-it's now or never. i'm going back into competitve bball. my last try. no regrets.
targets for 2008:
business-establish a better base for my printing business.
coaching-1) YTSS B girls'08: NZ top3
2) KSS C girls '08: WZ top4
2) de la salle pri junior girls '08: WZ top3
3) unity pri junior boys '08: WZ top4
**ranked in level of desire.
bballer-train hard to be able to play my best and not be bounded by physical weaknesses.
darter-reach rating 7.
spend more time wif family&frenz.
help more pple.
Towards the team, I clearly know i had let my heart ruled over my head. I tried not to b so emotionally involved but i can't seem 2 control. I guess everything has a breakdown point and i'm so afraid mine will b soon...
i talked to oqx only to realise she seems to have big problems herself too.
i turned to chun di only to find out she was troubled herself as her captain n vice captain have to quit the team becos they retained.
i sms sweet only to suspect she's sleeping.
i msn nasty apple and was certain she's talking hen.
juz finished watching 'pay it forward'. finally managed to find the disc at some ulu cd shop after looking for it for so long yest. the story was abt a very sweet 12yrs old boy, trevor, did all he could within his very limited power trying to fix things right for the world around him. his big plan to help someone and expect the person to help another 3 person and pay it forward was perfect but mankind is so hopeless sometimes that he gave up in the end. however, when he saw his classmate nids help, he couldn't not help.in his this last attempt to give it a last shot to his theory, he died while trying to protect his classmate when the bully stabbed him. a true story. he was remembered by many in america. the question ultimately was: can u fix pple??
a very meaningful show however with some depressing effect to b watched by a depressed person. even if i can right very thing on court, can i ever right players' mentality and attitude? i can fix a pass, a lay-up, a strategy but will i ever be able to fix a player's heart and passion? will i end up like trevor?
i remember i was so emotionally unstable once too was a few yrs back when i was still an active bball player where bball/team is my priority.
back then, i was totally vexed, totally affected.
vexed becos i care. affected becos it matters.
back then,
the team's problem would be my problem, sacrificing was never an issue.
i trusted the team whole-heartedly on/off court, but their trust in me was always in doubt.
i was emotionally attached to my team, oni to be totally emotionally affected by my team.
i gave away my heart, i got back betrayal.
suddenly i feel lost. lost becos the most important thing in my life turned agst me. lost becos the most important thing in my life
i told myself this before, ''don't you ever be so foolish again'', ''don't live for the team again'', ''never make team ur priority in life again'', ''never let ur heart rule your head again'' .
today, i am experiencing the same ordeal all over again. i cannot imagine how foolish i am. yet i can't remember since when the team had became so important to me considering all those nasty things that they had done to me. also i can't understand y the team had become so important to me since they are never very kind to me.
i always know i have high hopes for the team, i just didn't expect to have big setbacks from them. i never expect them to reciprocate, i just don't expect them to retaliate.
i'm lost. i lost trust, faith, beliefs not in the team but myself. my way、 my principles、 my style doesn't seem to work out good & now i struggle whether to stick to them or adopt way、principles、style i've never agreed with.
i don't know who to believe anyway and i can't seem to rely on anyone.
someone said:
leave the team & get away for awhile...can i?
don't be so nice to the team anymore...can i?
i shld not allow frenship to override basic respects that i shld b given.
i shld b more firm and not b taken for granted.
i shld not allow myself to b emotionally attached and affected by the team.
i don't have to do more than coach basketball.
it's seems that no matter what i do will be wrong. if not rebutted. if not argued. if not bargained. y can't they juz do things willingly? y can't they understand it's for their own good?
i'm so confused now. i don't even have the confident to do anything now. i'm afraid when i talk i'll say things that will b used to throw back into my face again. i'm afraid when i do things it's like forcing pple to swallow nails.
so i shall not talk..so i shall not act..
i shall be heartless..i shall be evil..
i shall draw the line.. i shall not be taken for granted..
i shall not put in feelings..i shall be firm..
i shall not b a fren..i shall be stranger..
Went neo’s place for zi char. Had some fabulous food wif some fabulous frenz. After which, we went to somewhr near cosybay and found a gd spot for the fireworks. We played with my mini mahjong while eating ‘hamster food’ and drinking ribena. Actually they were all glad that we were thr. The place was really a gd place for viewing fireworks. 1st of all it’s romantic. 2ndly, it’s not crowed @ all. 3rdly there’s place to park car & u don’t hafta walk much.
But don’t know y, some part of me feels like going into the crowd. I miss the squeezing and pushing. I miss being in the crowd…
I always have this thought: how cool is it to be able to meet someone u noe among several thousands of pple? Yet how sad is it that sometimes among several thousand of pple u still miss meeting pple u noe?
Last yr I met several pple while squeezing my way through the damn crowded esplanade underpass. This yr I had no hassle in getting a place while I meet no one.
Gains and losses this is. Fate this is.
Anyway, this yr’s firework is nice. Standing under the peaceful sky with the spectacular fireworks, I really wish 2008 will be a better year for me.
Make my way down to Spartan after that. The games were over. There were fighting. It was chaotic. People left. The pub was dead. I can’t stand being so boring anymore so I started messaging everyone I could think of who may b partying. In the end, either they r working, leaving for home, at home, drunk already. Wth…so I stayed at Spartan for some red wine..BORING! so I left after more red wine. BORING!
2008, will it be a better year for me?
wth! it's not even worthwhile!
becos of a person who's not even important anymore, i've sacrificed other more(most) important things.
i'm firm that i'm not the cause of the problem but i'm sure i've cause the problem to affect everybody.
it's really mine bad this time...
some say drinking drown all sorrows.
i say drinking makes me pee alot!
it's a mockery.
when u wish urself to b drunk, u are so sober with ur problems.
when u nid urself to b sober to resolve problems, u r drunk by emotions.
alrite, let’s talk abt regrets today.
I tink so far these r the worst setbacks for me s long s I’m a coach.
My 1st setback
KSS B div’06 west zone: I always believe it’s bad timing for us. Our 'journey' only lasted 2months (but our relationship seems many years). I went kss too late while they left kss too early.These gals have the most desire to excel. They never stop fighting at all on and off court. They were my 1 and only team so far that I see 12 pple wanting to win so much as a team. It’s like everyone is on court themselves.
I tink if not for these gals, I’ll not coach using my heart. I might not even b passionate abt coaching at all too. They asked me to create a miracle for them and they made me want to create a miracle for them. At that point of time, all of us believe we could really create miracle. We were strong becos all of us are fighting with 1 heart to create that miracle. Alas, we didn’t create any miracle. However, we were applauded by everyone present at the court for the fight we put up. No one thought we could put up a gd fight but we did. We lost but we’ve no regrets at all. We left but we were always remembered by many as KSS B gals’ 06.
My 2nd setback
YTSS C div’06 nationals:
This team is like my 1st baby. The 1st team I took over when I started off as a full-time coach. My 1st 5+(1) players: ong yingpei, candytook, psm, triciatan, Valerie + jassimidan. I’ve put in a lot of effort in this team and they r always my priority. Unfortunately, them being less receptive towards me had always undermine our progress. Nevertheless, we made our mark in NZ ’06.
When in nationals, I’ve high confidence of going into top8. However, some of them seems rather enough with top16. by the time they wanna fight, it’s already too late.
Til now, I still believe this regret is not brought abt by skills/tactics but more to them being resistance to me, lousy team spirit/bonding, tinkin too lowly of themselves & low/no desire to win. Therefore, we shld always regret this cos we didn’t lose to opponent but ourselves. Really, we could have gone so far if they have more faith in themselves and me…really..
My 3rd setback
To be filled…hopefully not..
specially for my BANANA DAUGHTER NO.2 thanks! This really is a booster for me at this worst moment of mine. if u gals r willing to fight, i promise i'll fight hard wif u all. results is important to school but not me. wat's important to me is we muz finish the game wif no regrets! dong shi abit k..don't b like the other side...tormenting me bad & killing me alive. they used to b my pride but now i'm so afraid they’ll become my GREATEST REGRETS. pls don't follow their footsteps hor. don't let me fight alone ok? reciprocate by showing me ur efforts n desires to win! i've high hopes for ur team too. so don't dash my hopes k. jia you! work hard! will concentrate on u gals aft I’m done wif my b div. meanwhile, don’t slack!! U might b surprised I wont blow my top recently cos I EMO-in. But beta don’t try anything funny cos I’ll b EVIL again once I get over my depression!! Muahahaha~~(evil laughs)
joyce tink i don't believe them. But do they know i didn't went back 2 check on them but instead hoping 2 c some happy scenes. But sadly.. Wat i saw is not wat i hope.
i know i'm abit out of control recently! I screwed all my relationships wif my players! I'm givin up @ the most crucial moment and i'm leavin them in the lurch. but, I'm not hatin them definitely.(S if i would?)
Players have always been my concern the day i became coach. I always wanted 2 gif them my best n i'm guilty for not being the best. Many i have considered 2 become my frenz and who don't know how much i treasure frenship? But i tink i'm really losin it & losin them. I don't know y all my concerns and intentions came out harsh from my mouth.
Who will know? It's tormentin coachin them, but it's even worse not coachin them!! It's frustatin talkin 2 them but it's even worse not talkin 2 them. It's agonizing to c them trailin but it's even worse seein them give up.
Ok, let's b true. I don't not wish for wat i'm not doing. In fact i've lots lots lots of things that i wanna do wif them. I've more things 2 share wif them s i grow. But the saddest thing is our interactions is not 4ever! Time flies.. 2+yrs will b over in no time. I really hope 2 c them grow into a gd players n gd person.
maybe tis is not a gd yr 4 many coaches. S far s i noe, nygs&angelican high's coaches suspended their b gals trainings due 2 sucky players attitudes. Chun di might lose her job in ajc becos of some unreasonable player wif unreasonable parents complainin her 4 makin fail her promo exams. wth! Y ain't teachers responsible for academic results? Like if there's no cca, s if the students gg 2 study the whole afternoon thro evenin! If u can't cope, simply don't b a sportsperson la. A sportsman is all abt discipline. If u r not discipline enough 2 manage ur time den go join something else! Y blame us?!?! Y shld we b responsible??!! Maybe coaches who don't care r the best. At least, i tink they'll live longer..
my dreams for the team:
frankly, i'm realistic. i don't have the biggest dream for ytss 'o8 and i know no one can grow taller/stronger overnight. it's only my dream that all of them can play up to their standard. now, many of them r still bounded by alot of things (not enough desire, unwillingness to give their all, never put in their best effort to play, fear of opponent, afraid to try, no communication etc etc.) that's deterring them from performing at their best and at the team's best.
i want this team to make a comeback and show the world their capability @ their best. this dream is in me for 1yr plus. in fact this dream has never grow smaller for me at all despite all the negative comments i've heard all around. despite many bad games, our games with cedar, yuying, zhonghua & rj have prove as evidences of my belief in the team. i never could bring myself to give up on this team no matter how bad situations are. i never could bring myself to give up on this dream no matter how pple think i'm naive. now i can only pray that my players can make my dreams come true.
my nightmares for the team:
parents and school pressure have always been factors that's hindering us from dreaming. but seeing the players giving up in themselves and in games is my nightmare. nothing can be worse than giving the game away ourselves. it's nobody's fault that there's a loose ball and u don't fight for it, u don't jump to the rebounds, u don't go for the ball, u don't clinch the ball strong enough and opponents stripped it off, u miss pass, u never chase back a turnover. it's nobody's fault but your's.
1yr plus back when we lost to dunman&zhonghua, it has been a nightmare for me when everything ended. but this time it will be the worst nightmare for me if everything ends cos i know this will be the last time for revenge. this is my last reunion with this team. and when things end this time, it will be THE END. we can never get back again. therefore, if there's 1 thing i fear, i'll say this nightmare is my greatest fear.
Had 2 days camp wif ytss. I wanted tis camp to b a better and happier 1 initially. (Well, this camp means smth to me cos like this is the last 1 that we might have?) However, it started off bad wif pple not sleeping and dragging themselves there. Shortly, pple started falling sick. GLAD some pple finally come back yet sad to see how much they had deteriorated. Had my fair share of entertainment seeing them all excited over their bets yet I wonder they catch the real objectives I wan them to observe. Had my revenge informally yet I doubt they can feel my desire to revenge in the actual thing.
Day 1 ended…
Edmund did me a big favour coming down wif his girls wif my less den 24hrs emergency request. The 1st 2 quarters were still ok but as 3rd quarter came along…anger started to built up within me. And anger turned into worries and worries turned into desperation. His words spot me right. ‘Worried abt ur team?’ he said. Well ya, very worried...seems like they had not reached the standard that I wanted and here I am wif my last day of trainin. I know we shld b there but we r not thr yet!! I know most of them can do it but they r not doing it! This is the desperation I’m talking abt. Who can help me?? Who can gif me a solution??
And CANDYTOOKSHIQIN got me all flaming!! This is the day when I’m most angry wif CANDYTOOKSHIQIN! And I wonder if she knows wat I m angry abt?
Little sleep+pms+CANDYTOOKSHIQIN+jy+triciatan+lousy rebounds+lousier defense+ lousiest finishing=very very angry and agitated bee.
I tink I’m really way too emotional to b coachin...can die man. I tink soon I’ll haf to go for anger+depression management classes liao.
However, I do find some COMFORT somehow. Thanks! Thanks to whom? That’s something for me to know, for u to find out.
End of camp!! NZ 2008 awaits…R U READY?
**I’ll bring yingpei cycling to make her love running!!**
Xmas eve this yr is quite boring yet very heartwarming for me tis yr. me&ling had steamboat @ jia’s hse with $70+ of FOOD! How FATtening! N we finished almost everything…UNBELIEVABLE! Watched ‘friends’ aft that wif ben&jerry s dessert..yumYUM! Maybe if we really leave today in dream house, our lives will be this fun?
Left to dart after that…1st game got kicked to loser pool, 2nd game got kicked out liao. Boring…was decorated wif lighted santa’s hat n light sticks. I was literally SHINNING! Den jia,ling&yun called me to join them 4 durian @ geylang. Therefore, left Spartan to meet them..but didn’t eat cos I was simply too full. Oso dunno y they can still eat lor.. power man!
Count-downed in the middle of geylang..how so out of place. My 1st time..maybe last? Haa.. went back to Spartan..the place was damn messy..i suppose they had a crazy crazy countdown..too bad I missed it. Threw some darts, hiao wif Pauline, played some game Someone tried to make me drunk..gd try la..but try harder next time.
Pauline very ‘helpful’, plot to ‘help’ US take foto. Wat a mum..sacrifice her son! Haha..(if u read, i still like ur son more! Haha)
Bbq on xmas day. My 1st xmas party invited by ang mor. Yep, special wif very very nice food!
*why did xmas seems more fun when we were younger?*
i self-declare this is yingpei's xmas present for me! =p
i'm suppose to upload yingpei's photo too!!!hahaa..well done merlin!haiiii..play ball cancelled again cos short of 2 pple!! it's been 3 weeks liao!! =(
No patience is in me and if you offend me
I'm liftin you 10 feet (liftin you 10 feet).. in the air
I don't care who is there and who saw me destroy you
Go call you a lawyer, file you a lawsuit
I'll smile in the courtroom and buy you a wardrobe
I'm tired of arguin' (of arguin')..I don't mean to be mean but that's all I can be is just me
And I am, whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news everyday I am
Radio won't even play my jam
Cause I am, whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news everyday
I amI don't know it's just the way I am
abit sianz lately. unhappy things happened again. it was juz last night that i got so excited and inspired to start engine for my high-peak plan, then the very next day i was crashed...my engine died and i dun even how to start it off now. candy was rite. ''qi wang so high, disappointment oso high''.
**and i watched them waste their time off..**
worse, kss ain't making life easier 4 me recently either. since when did some players became so fuck-up with fuck-up attitude (yes agacia, fuck-up is a verb. in accordance to merrian-webster dictionary, it's an intransitive verb to describe: to ruin or spoil especially through stupidity or carelessness)?
ya now i feel fucked-up. i can't seem to control my emotions too. and my advice for u, when u r in tis state of mind, don't ever listen to eminem's songs. it makes u feel even more depressed, more upraged, more crazy!! i tink i know i'm crazy when i bashed the dart-board machine and drove at 130km/hr.
i need to get a hold of myself. or can someone get hold of me please?
picture in redsports:
yishun town #8 was TOO SLOW and could only watch helplessly as cedar 8 scored an easy basket. yishun town #5 though she could hide but she's simply too *** to b covered.)
Read what Redsports gotta say about us...
(wth! y did they sound so unwilling to let us win lidat! we cannot win meh?!?!)
Yuying-adidas Invitational League 2007
Yishun Town Secondary vs Cedar Girls’ Secondary
Monday, 10 December 07 at CCAB
Story and picture by Red Sports reader Teo Siang Yang.
Yishun Town beat Cedar Girls’ 56-54 in a tightly-contested game that went into overtime yesterday in the Yuying Invitational League.
When the girls from Yishun Town stepped onto the court, they knew that they were in for a tough game.(yah i think we know we were in for a tough game, unfortunately they dunno they were not in for an easy game!) Cedar Girls’, this year’s Championship contender, were not an opponent not to be brushed off lightly.
From the first whistle, the girls from Cedar displayed their prowess. They executed their defense and offense accurately and looked invincible(really? how come they don't seem to b able to take us?). Yishun Town gave resistance but still trailed by two points after the first quarter.
The turning point came in the 2nd quarter when Yishun Town went on a scoring spree, led by number 5(who punk-cheked at 5:18mins) and number 8(who punk-cheked too!!). They gave their team 10 points and ended the 1st half with the lead. Cedar did not take it lying down. They came back to take the 3rd quarter but still trailing by four points. With renewed energy(woah! i envy..my players' energy oni have 1 word to describe=>punk-chek!) ,they stormed back(we stormed too! heavy la..bo bian!) and tied the score with two minutes left to play and took the lead on their next play. Yishun Town then composed themselves and tied the game with seconds to play. They(psm to b exact) fumbled on their last play and did not manage to find a shot, sending the game into the first overtime(5 mins!!! yao ming ah!! 5 & 8 already punk-chek can!) of the league.
Both teams gave end-to-end action but it was Yishun Town which finally prevailed to win their third win with a score of 56 to 54( and ytss's coach was happy..ytss's punk chek players were happy..ytss's players who seems to b oni thr not to play match but watch game were happy..referees were happy)
present from one of my BANANA daughter from her hometown!! WRS boys gave me a very sweet present from taiwan too..too bad cannot capture it clear on camera!!
thanks gal & boys!! ;)
back home 6pm today.it's been a long time since i reached home so early and stayed home!! it's oso a long time since i eat mama's food! nice~
can't stop arm-ciou-ing since sat. my kss c gals had been very dong shi and showed me some good/right mentality, attitude and fighting spirits( wat can i still ask 4 man?) .
played bbaxn 1st time wif chilli peppers, not bad...still m 1 of the top scorers. heng ahh..i really thot i became so cannot make it when played nyjc that day. yuan lai it's was really distractions! or becos chun di was there on sat? haa!
neo came to dart. we dart til 4am & went supper. so tired..the next mornin early mornin they jio-ed mahjong. aiyoyo..so relunctant to go but no choice..short 1 leg. was in a very blur mode..i oni remember i ate scallops, crabs, fish den mj..den ate lobsters, more crabs, more scallops and more fish again..den mj..den lost $100! =( thot i will K.O once home but team things kept running in my mind until i finally cannot take it @ 3am.
dragged myself out of bed and went ccab. had my notes wif me abt wat nids to b changed/done. if my last resort still can't work out i tink i really will give up man. HENG ahh...my 'little bees' did a very very great job today! actually it's not abt winning the game. to me, it's more of seeing their potentials being unleashed. it's more of seeing them fighting til the end(til OVERTIME mind u!)
isn't it great not giving up? isn't it great winning a strong team? isn't it great to b playing hard and playing well? isn't it great to be playing with no fear? isn't it great to have more believe and confidence in yourself? if oni u all can haf tis kind of mentality rite from the start. i tink we'll b formidable liao! but it's not too late, not late at all! POSITIVE POSITIVE POSITIVE!
i said b4..it's up to u really..how hard u fight, how focus u r, how determined u r, how brave u r. believe in my judgement if not my wisdom. if i say u can U CAN! if i know u can't i oso wont force u. have more faith in me, have more faith in urself! i hope today's game will be the yardstick 4 us. we shld b doing beta den this yardstick day by day. pls do not juz show me 1 time good. learn from ur mistakes and reduce it game by game. i made my mistake too..sorry..my bad...but i'll not commit again.
I'M SO HAPPY! ;) hehehee..hahahaa..hee haa hee haa!
fyi: see how much u can score! and realise how IMPORTANT it is when u don't score how much u shld score in any game!!
yingpei-20(fair enough. but good today as u worked hard in defense and never give up on loose balls and ur endurance! of cos free throw can b beta!)
candy-15(fair enough. better defense and offense today but u urself shld know u needa work more on ur stamina. punk-chek(punctured) @ 5:18min of 2nd quarter is really not cool being 1 of the pillars of the team.)
psm-11(fair enough for some1 who ONLY started scoring in the 3rd quarter?!!? don't tel me u 1st 2quarters u really sleeping inside? and last sec suddenly became stupid! haa..juz kiddin..wake up psm WAKE UPPPPP~~)
tricia-4(below standard but managed to cover wif some recoveries on defense. but still not gd enuff for some1 joe praised! =p )
valerie-4(below standard. u threw away much more balls den u can remedy wif these 4 pts. and ur rebound is not there today too. time 4 u to wake up oso valerie! ask psm morning call u!!!)
(and special mention)
yahui-2(very good for the amount of play time u get. at least u ba guo to get ur name up the scoring chart. cool. juz stay off the chart of trouble can liao!)
well, for those who played but didn't score, don't complain i didn't give u the chance. it's more like u threw ur chance away if not u didn't grab it. u should b glad u get the chance to be considered NOW(cos i wouldn't say the chance will still b available 4 u LATER.)
actualli i realli despise u...
when others r fighting, u gave the game away.
when others r trainin hard, u didn't give it ur all.
when others behave like warriors, u act like a coward.
to me, obviously u don't look like u care that u r leavin the team in the lurch, u don't feel guilty u r destroying our effort , u don't feel shame u r not putting in effort, u don't sacrifice for the game or ur teammates.
u chose the easy way out everytime. u chose to retreat everytime. u chose to b seen s if u r the victim everytime(r u really? or r u the culprit?). u chose to be unsupportive everytime.
So, y try to act like s if u care so much when u can do nothing now?
So, y sound s if u really 1 2 do it so much oni when u got the excuse to not do it now?
i can only say..c'mon unless u r making any actions, don't try to fool us anymore wif ur WORDS! u had already done us much injustice already. so don't hurt us further wif false hopes/promises!
it's confirmed that the team will always be there for u supporting u whole-heartedly.
but will u b there for the team supporting them when they need u most?
i remember last time when we could take them easily...today we lost to them.
have they improved or have we deteriorated?
i remember last time when all were so eager to excel&improve...today i lost feel of their enthusiasm.
have they stopped moving forward or have i stopped feeling?
i remember last time when my players always make me sleepless...today i lost my worries.
have i given up on them or have they given up on me?
i remember last time when i treat them like my kins...today i lost hold of it.
have they no concern or have i cared too much?
i remember last time when i ask for my team to be 'family-based'...today i lost the connections.
have we became strangers or have we not been a family from start? i remember last time when i could sit back and taste victories...today i lost my cool.have they made no mistakes or have i too high expectation of them?i remember last time when some r stars on court...today i lost trace of them.have i entered darkness or have they stopped shining i remember last time when i believe we will make a comeback...today i lost faith in it.have they stop fighting or have i stop fighting?hold on to me...hold on to me tight cos i'm afraid i may stop believing, i may fall, i may break!
a big part of me really want to work hard and want to help the gals win something yet a small part of me is really turned off by some things/people!
nevertheless, i still wanna thanks those gals who's working so hard. it's a big push for me. hope the rest will b pushed too!
u may not know u r the ones motivating me but indeed u r! ;)
OMG! played like shit today!! so weak! so never ba wo! heng never ask chun di to go watch!
i've really been slacking these 2 years. thinking one can play without training is so wrong!!
time to get serious again man!
i shall beginin train 4 the upcoming converse cup(17th dec)! i don't 1 to play like shit!NO!!
anyway i thot LITTLE BEES played well. satisfying for me except for the fumble in the 3rd quarter. if not, i realli think we could have won! nvm, focus on next match. muz win MI man! there's a BIG BET going on! =p
看到今天的你，我真的觉得很欣慰。=)
JUST WHAT EXACTLY IS A GOOD GAME?
well, i think basketball is very simple. u 1 to attack to win, u 1 to defend to win.
i suppose different pple have a different definitions for a good game.
to someone who is not a basketballer, maybe seeing the team he/she supports wins is good enough.
to someone who is a basketballer, maybe seeing someone doing something impression is considered good.
to a player who is not a main player, maybe not making mistakes the times he/she is on court is considered good.
to a player who is a main player, maybe being able to execute his/her skills on court is considered good.
so what's my definition of a good game?
my coaches never tel me what's a good game. what got me where i was when i was a player at my peak? i tink basically i really have strong desire to win. i am never satisfied being just a player. i always wanted to b a player that helps my team win games. i 1 to b 1st 5. i 1 2 b part of my coach's plan. i hate to be sub-ed out. i 1 2 play s long s i can. i 1 2 score as many s balls s i can. i cannot stand myself being the one allowing the opponent to score. when u score on me, i wanna score back and score back more! i suppose that's how i prove my threat to many even though i started off basketball alot later than many pple. i never let my late entry into the bball world an excuse for me to b not playing(well) on court.
of cos i do have bad games in even in my peak. i remember how chun di used to yell at me(come to tink of it, i tink she's the ONLY coach who ever scolded me and scolded me upside down!) everytime she scold me, i was damn angry. it really 'motivate' me to make me 1 fight even harder the next game to prove her wrong! i don't bear grudges for her scolding me, i juz feel proud that after so many years, all she can talk abt everytime even up til today is the good game i gave her in 2002 on the finals agst aljunied. i know i had prove my worth back then and her effort on me had paid off.
now s a coach, my definition of a good game is seeing my team executing wat i've taught. it's seeing players playing up to their standards. the standards they should give and i know they can give.
my advise s a player/coach is no matter wat's the result of the game, ask yourself this at the end of the day: r u satisfied wif ur performance? did u give it ur all? did u let down ur team? did u let down yourself?
i always believe ur coach can teach u nothing/everything. but it's really up 2 u wat a player u can become. i only hope for all players who consider themselves as a basketballer, after many many years when u tink back again, it's ok to have no achievements to remember by but let's hope that ur memories is not filled with many regrets.