it's has been awhile since i send zelia home. was the last time that accident that time?
it has oso been awhile since i have a serious talk with her. i tink i really did neglect my sec 3s for my c gals recently.
zelia zhang da le... more matured now although still blur blur and 4getful. =p
CHECK OUT MY 'SON'!!!!
i did not spend $100+ on my son. ''NO, I DID NOT!!'' =p
one thing for sure: my 'son' is definitely SMARTER than my 'daughters'!! yah, tt's for sure~~
so tired these few days...
thu sad til cannot sleep aft reading 'that' blog, fri chat on phone with bananadaughters til very late, sat mahjong til very late, sun cheong til very late( or early? since it's 6am and i oni slept til 9+)last but not least, last nite dart til very late.
unhappiness,hp radiations,13hrs of mj,wine&liquors,darts really drained me totally.
i m juz happy things are better now, oso no mj til next wk, no drinking til fri and no darts for the time being. however i still nid to buzz abt hui's wedding on sun. tmr and thu busy printing, fri nite hen's party, sat little bees playing admiralty cup, sun whole day helping as jie mei..andandand..i havent got my 2 white dresses!! why can't it be blue,green,brown,black leh? so mafan..nid to shop! so sad..nid to spend $$!
(the person who gave me this flower oso gave and an adidas jacket and LV wallet. wat a gd fren rite? but i will also remember YOU'RE THE FREN WHO MADE ME PUKE TWICE and counting...=p)
do things really work out only when you lost or going to lose them?
rather ironic feelings felt recently. i had fallen out with my most beloved and connected kss(particularly bananadaughters). although we r ok now, i still can't believe our relationship did actually turned hostile then. lacks cherish!
on the other hand, my wrs are so guai and nice to me now. they started showing me very good attitude and mentality. all the problem kids last time who quitted(colin,wilson), almost quitted(xaiver), didn't want to cooperate with me/passive(tingwei), kanna chased out of court by me(still xaiver) are all back and are now very much better than last time. this is the team i'm going to lose soon. will be handing them over to YQ aft c boys while i go train c boys for next yr. so sad~~ ='( but well, let's do well for milo cup this time ok boys? our last chance together. must cherish!
saddest case is ytss. for so many yrs, i've never feel connected to them. why is it only til now do i feel there's finally a connection between us?? i really hate who ever is the one who broke my girls and me up!! i wish u never have to break up with something u love ever becos i know how painful it is! (but i sure wish u get ur retribution! hmmph!). no chance to cherish!
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thanks jiahui,shermaine,weili,huimin! 有心了！i'll always remember you all de. don't 4get me too! we'll play ball together soon ok!! ;)
it's ironic when i was coaching them, they never call me for no reasons. now that i'm not, out if the blue i received a call from yahui &joyce asking me to watch them on tv.
while seeing them became a habit, it's weird not seeing them for close 1 mth. it's even weirder when i actually see them again, it's on TV!! what's weirdest is that it's the kopi-tiam's tv!
anyway, i saw sandra,jieying,joyce,yahui,siyi,shermaine,weili,cass,jiayu,sici of ytss. for kranji, only managed to see sheryln & librarian(i tink i saw her?)
thx yahui(&joyce) 4 taking the effort to 'record' the show 4 me. i'll definitely keep the video to remember ur (blurred)faces by. haa!
thank u psm! i'm really touched becos i tink this is like the 1st time i get any 'thank you' from the sec 4s. u affirmed my belief that '只要有付出，一定有回报'. it doesn't really matter how much i get back becos at least i can confirm i didn't waste my efforts on nothing/heartless pple. i asked myself, y we can never express our feelings when we had each other? i've learned my lesson. i hope all my other teams can learn from our lesson too.
u may not know how to start but i sure know how to end: finally i realised, my relationships wif the team(maybe not all) is not as bad/ugly as i thought. i thought i won't get to say this again but i will say it 1 last time: THANK YOU YTSS(u gals not the school!!)! i'll remember all our gd times & forget our bad times. let's all continue to jia you in our lives from now on.
as of today, i'm no longer coach of ytss.
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don't cry already yahui.
don't be sad whoever r sad.
like what yahui says, ''My mouth might always say 'I don't like her.' But actually inside, I care alot about her.'' i guess her statement speaks for me too la. i always claim i'll let go of YTSS 1st if i hafta let go of any sch. now that i really gotta let go, i can't describe how i hate to part with them.
quoting yahui again, no matter how much unhappiness there were, chao chao the feeling is still there wat!
don't tink too much. definitely you gals were not wrong this time.
u& me both didn't treasure our chance when we have the chance. now that we lost it, it's juz too late to regret. i guess we gotta learn to cherish every moment, everyone ard us when it's with us.
no use regretting only when it's lost.
take care pple!!
pple change,
it's saddening how pple can suddenly change overnight.
at a blink,
i couldn't recognise the one standing in front of me anymore?
total trust,
brings me to great disappointments and it's heartbreaking.
shld i meddle,
or allow things to go out of hand after which regret and grief?
ripping my heart,
when i hafta let go of something once important.
can i reverse,
or is this an irreversible process for us to resign fate to?
now i finally understand why things don't work out for me and the others.
becos when i start to care enuff, i can't allow pple to go astray.
i want the best out of YOU yet YOU are indulge in temptations.
i always believe YOU will not become others.
now i feel YOU have become others.
the others that i never would hope YOU will become.
i failed..once again..i failed..
i'm juz glad i'm experienced already...
i'm juz glad i never cry this time...
despite the fact that i got angry wif a flower(which didn't even know what it did wrong) & losing the dart game which may cost us our chance 2 b in the finals(boo~), it was still a GREAT GREAT day yest!
Why why why?
Becos all my ex-players suddenly miss me and sms me after long long time(except nicole). In the mornin, Nicole msg her abt her groupin in A div which is v gd. Cool! Den when i'm pissed wif a flower, suddenly got a sms from the self-declare-我-最-疼-就-是-她-的-Cass(this gal ah, haven't heard fr her since CNY aft she appeared&disappeared wif a box of shark's fin soup 4 me.) sayin she was at old NIE and saw the bball court which reminded her of me.Silly gal, when did i ever look like a court! =p
Darted at nite. I played badly today. Shit.. But it juz feel different throwin wif slippers & not shoes! Lost 5-4. Will we make it to finals? I hope we do. Feel i'm lettin tony down! Cannot stand myself playin so badly so went down spartan to spar abit. Unfortunately, tt irritatin weihan was there. Kept flirtin wif me. Buay tahan!
Out of the blue, received a msg fr the most unexpected person: yinci!! She missed me too! Yes, I'm so lookin 4ward to our gatherin. Do organise soon ok. ;)
So many pple miss me and tink of me today. I miss them too! It's feels good to b remembered. JiaoJiao always remembers and tink abt u gals 2! ;)
I'm so glad i even haf that batch of players in my coachin career:nicole,cass,yinci,kityee,zub,joan,ellysa,alicia(who still looks me up), (not 4gettin)yenle,elayne,natasha,jinxiang! W/o them, i don't tink i'll develop the passion&confidence to even continue coachin. Althou we don't haf much trainin time together(some 1yr +, some s short s 2+ months), althou we didn't win anything, we gain some things much more valuable than those medals. we had precious quality time n memories we achieved from fightin wif 1heart,1mind. we have strong bondings we achieved by treatin each other wif respect,true heart,trust,sincerity.
I'm happy! I'm smiling! I'm glad! I'm proud! =D =) =] :D :) :]