SAD BUT TRUE
连续6天早起，晚上脑子又无控地烦着下星期三的比赛。真的觉得既累又无劲。。。
跟春娣谈了很久。真的有很多感触。。。
累
我知道大家都很累。辛苦值不值得真的只有自己知道。唯一可以肯定的是曾经努力付出过的人应该都不会后悔吧？其实，我也很累、真得很累。说真的，当你做的一切努力被漠视时，那是对精神的一大折磨呀！春娣说，唯一可以阻止球员上球场的人只有他们自己；唯一可以直接控制球队的胜利是球员不是教练。你要但你的球员不做你也没办法。如果你的付出球员看不到那就算了，不要一直耿耿于怀、责怪自己。或许你们就是没有缘，或许你就是要学会舍弃，把精神放去别的球队/东西上？
亏欠
如果你觉得你对不起的只是你的队友，如果你觉得你只需要对你的队友有所交待，那我真的觉得你太对不起我了。每次把你包括在我的计划当中时，你总是会发生状况。每一次我都被你耍但每一次我都再相信你。我真得好傻！
利用
当你觉得自己被利用的时候你会继续被利用吗？不难觉得自己被球员利用了。有事时就对我很好，没事时就当我没有，甚至还整天给我一张不爽的脸、不尊重的态度。我又没做错什么也没得罪她们。为了什么我要像欠她们的？为什么我还要对她们那么好呢？如果所作的一切不得要领，那就算了吧。就当自己花了3年来认清自己的球员吧。我真的好天真。
我敢说用心用意教球我做到了。为了我的球队，我付出一切、我问心无愧。春娣说: 如果我觉得自己很笨，那是因为我出至于新加坡最笨但又最热爱篮球的教练。她说
我和她都那么聪明。但她也笨笨做教练的副教练十几、二十年了。我们每次都说教练笨，被球员欺负/利用但我们也笨笨步了她的后尘。如今教练比我们聪明了！她不教球了。每天快快乐乐。仅剩我俩还笨笨地在被球员欺！
**春娣一直叫我不要教球了。我问回她：那你也不要教啦！我们都静了。教也难，不教跟难！我俩都知道让我们不教的理由很多，但让我们继续的理由也不少。下次再继续吧。
PRICE FOR PRIDE&GLORY= SEVERE BACK PAIN!! =(
went play ball in the evening. back problem is bad enuff liao..still have someone to get on my nerve. make me play until 'fa pi qi' & in the end still being scolded by BS for being 'very bad'.
i'm sorry even in juz a play ball session my attitude is to PLAY2WIN!!!
i'm sorry i juz can't stand ur attitude in playing basketball. if u r too scare, too low-confidence, too slow, too stupid, too lousy then at least work hard la. i'm ok wif u making mistakes and not making the basket and too slow for the opponent but at least remedy ur mistakes la. hiding behind pple do wat sai? pretend to be not 'there' is so irresponsible la!!
if not u don't work, if not u r blocking the way so extra. don't 1 pass u the ball u like so useless...pass u the ball u go find the defender. if not i qie u block my path. if not fastbreak u block me s if i'm ur opponent. wah piangz!!
if u r too scare, too low-confidence, too slow, too stupid, too lousy & not working hard den don't play bball la!! i don't care if u have improved. to me on court every1 is the same. if u r on my team u beta match up the standard. if u r not on my team i'll bully u. i wont show mercy juz becos u r too scare, too low-confidence, too slow, too stupid, too lousy esp in a game.
FUCK YOU LAH!! becos of u...BS bu shuang me. i oso buay song cos i dont tink i'm in the wrong!!
KNSKNSKNS! KNNKNNKNN!!CCBCCBCCB!
*bleah*
went 2 play 4 chilli peppers agst comets(tt pig,SINdy's team). Excl those ang mor's, it's like the national team in battle 3~4yrs ago. On our side we haf xueling,yuni,yao2&me(long time since i play wif them again). On their side beside that pig they haf zhoulei&yunyun. Den their got tis super ang mor giant. I tink she's 1.9m lor since zhoulei alr 1.87m liao. Den they got tis musclewoman!
Den the game began n we still hafta gif them 4pts for not wearin the right jerseys. Kowz!
I tink my rebound is power today man. Despite fightin agst 1.9,1.87 n yao(1.86),i still got alot.
BLOCK-OUT RULEZZZ!!! AND PLAYIN SMART ROCKZZZ!!
however punk-cek suckzzz!! I wanted 2 play s long s i can but really no strength man. Boxing out the 2giants is tiring! But luckily i recovered v fast. Like I say b4,agst pig i sure hot 1!! &the theory is still proven right. 1pt of time she was man-markin me. Siao.. Such a mismatch. Shortie 1 guard me! Maybe u'll b taller if u r STRAIGHT? But too bad u r CROOKED!
The important thing is we won! By 2 or 3pts i tink? Den i ask them: 'we win tis game got effect on the results?' they told me:'no.. Juz pride&glory. Haa.. We caused their 1st lost in the league.' i was like.. Haa.. Yeah, PRIDE & GLORY! PLAY THE PIG!! Happy!
woke up @ 6am & left house in the dark to meet wrs boys for breakfast. 4 came in time to b eligible for a treat fr me. But the rest turned up eventually. It's gd feelin. I've spend little quality time wif them recently & finally today got chance. Aft breakfast, went bk sch to train.
Only trained 2hrs cos needa go ytss for frenly agst kaixuan. However they weren't strong enuff 2 simulate s AI. Somehow, i feel our pple like v afraid of that idiot bung. Does tis means half the battle lost?
2 of my targets set for this yr met! YTSS B gals into top 4(and i expect top3!) in NZ and de la salle junior gals 3rd in WZ. yeah~ =D
1 target not met which is unity boys...out in 2nd rd. =(
outcome of KSS C gals still uncertain.
weird feelin..i think i shld b feelin happy for such achievements. well, i m feelin good&proud on the result wise but somehow i'm not that happy in terms of emotions. i achieve the goals in terms of results but i feel i didn't achieve much in my other aspects like having the team acting like a family, taking care of their well-being etc etc. i don't know whether it's becos i'm having lesser n lesser time for such things or did my passion juz died.
even KSS, the 1 team where i find comfort and enjoy going to coach no longer behaves the way they used to b anymore. they r making me angry more than usual n i feel more n more distance from them somehow..=(
at YTSS, becos of freaking incidents i tink me&sec 4s went back to the not-so-good relationship again. conflicts,misunderstanding,different pt of views is tearing us apart. the oni thing left holding us togther i guess is our common dream.
let's b fair..i tink sec3s improved n matured alot..juz that the sad thing is last time i haf more players. now i seemed to haf fewer n fewer..
sianzzz...sianzz...sianzz...off to dart...eat some food...drink some beer..4get some sorrows...KO!!
it has been a long time since i invited pple to my house. i remember the last time was ling+jia+lingqin they all coming to visit me in my cast.(so long me&lq r not even frenz anymore). today i open up my invitations to all my players. so glad to c those who turned up turned up. i hope u enjoyed the popiahs. i'm sorry if my house is too boring 4 u. i dun usually haf fun @ home u c..but i'll try to make it beta next time la.maybe at least buy some games for the psp n ps2 so u all can play games and not juz having the consoles. haa..
but realli can c the contrast in my 2schools gals man. Borrriing vs ACTIVE, very shy vs buay paiseh, obeying vs domineering. but 1 similarity:both schools gals oso bully me!! =p still my seniors sayang me more lor. talkin abt senior..tt cass oso very funny. say 1 bring yu-sheng 4 me to eat..den i make every1 wait 4 her yu-sheng to lo-hei. in the end she came wif yu-ci!! chinese still s lousy can!!
boy, i really miss my kss seniors!!i know i gonna miss my ytss seniors too(even thou they not so attached to me)!! and i'll definitely treasure my current batches.
may we haf more happy&quality&fun&fulfilled&glorious time together ok!
CNY over..time to work hard pple!! NZ b gals semis,finals&nationals and WZ c gals. we muz make our dreams come true k. MIRACLE!
i knew i complain abt how boring CNY can be...but i didn't expect things to b so dramatic today.
1stly have been eating since i wake. from my house to ping's house to pauline's house to pq's house.
at ping's hse she told me silas's fren gave birth to the 1st rat baby so she's gonna visit. den @ pauline's house i thot i entered gamble village. the whole corridor filled wif mahjong tables and inside the house all cards table. didn't gamble there but had long talk wif her. was shocked to find her she divorced her husband becos he's using violence! wth!
den went to pq's hse. black-jacked. =.='' at 1 round i was winning $500+ then the next moment i'm losing $250, $200+,$250. so sianz..i'm now -$400 for the new yr! shit!! nvm..po cai xiao zhai, po cai xiao zhai!!
then ah-hui came and say downstairs got pple having sex openly..me&pf chiong to watch. i was shocked! shocked that the 2of them actually did it at the downstairs rubbish chute collection point. not smelly meh? and there so many rats running abt lor..strange pple!!
mahjonged after all decided to go home. i thot it'll be beta too cos blackjack realli win fast lose fast! who knows suddenly R called to say pf and him quarrelled and pf gg crazy. so we rushed down to her hse and she really went crazy...like possessed. i supposed becos she drank alot b4 that la..still want cheers and cheers wif me..haiyoh. but i guess she's most true when she's drunk and fuck that R for bullying his wife!! really looked down on him! so sad to see what happened to my fren and when i'm so close to them. she was cryin, the mum and sis were crying. R i really think u deserved to be CASTRATED man!!
dramatic day. better sleep now. still nid pack up tmr for sunday for them to come.
i must fan ben!!!
=) =) =) =) =) =)=) =) =) =) =) =)
HAPPY CNY!!
like i say..i knew this rat yr is gonna b better. started CNY wif the gd news of wanling coming to YTSS! yea~~
1st day of CNY was boring s usual. luckily went cousin's hse and managed to catch them! make it less boring. but it felt quite weird when big cousin carry her girl give me ang bao. i guess tt's becos we both know we zhang da le!
came home and managed to meet up with my dearest meilin-lu jie jie. it's like so much we nid to talk abt but too bad i rushing off to mahjong. =p
not very smooth with $ though. 1st day down $200 liao...sucks!
BORING!
=( my unity boys lost..so close to top4 yet so far from it. :~(
everything strategised nicely liao..the only thing is the boys never follow!! dunno whether they r nervous or scare or bu ting hua or STUPID!
angry! really cannot stand why my players r so STUPID! ok..i mean NOT SMART(cos zelia's dad say 'stupid' is a mean word!)!
y the hell i'm such a witty player/coach but my players never 'inherit' any of my trait! is they cannot think or i didn't teach them to think?? urgghhh~i realli cannot stand stupid pple!!
well..1 more team out for achievement. now left my hopes for YTSS 'B', DLS juniors & KSS 'C'(yet another not so smart team!). but i'm glad all these teams r playing their games after CNY s i think the PIG's year is really a sway sway year for me! Lost ALot of $ nevermind, all my teams kenna the worst groupings, n i fell down and scratched knee which never happen for like the longest time la. jia say the RAT year is going to b gd for chickens so i'm looking forward to it. i suppose the hard work r in i juz need that little bit of luck to boost me up!!
1 MORE DAY TO MY SWAYNESS! 1 MORE DAY TO GOOD LUCK!! YEAH~~
btw banana daughter, if u read this, relay this message to ur team. u all r behind time and my planning. i need u all to buck up more. banana mommy is sorry but i really need to focus on ytss side 1st. however that doesn't mean u all shld stop progressing/fighting hard. it's my fault i neglect u all but it cannot b an excuse for u all to b playing worse. train hard, play SMART! i really don't know y u all so not-smart. can u all not b so not-smart? or at least tel me y u all not-smart so i can try to make u all smart?
i received a complain for scolding player. my 1st complain letter. sucks! i used to believe i can coach w/o scolding my players s i shld haf taught them to b mature enough to think...but i'm scolding more than usual recently. m i getting more bad-tempered? r they unable to meet my expectations? or they never learn if i don't scold? or they deserved to b scolded? m i turning into those coaches who control their teams military style? r my principles lost? suckss!! =(
wat a rush rush day today...
1stly rushed to clementi for kss's match. den 3rd quarter(sadly after i left, kss from lead to lose...c how important i m! =p)left for de la salle's match(won!)...den rushed down to ytss's trainin(not realli wat i planned)...when dinner den rushed to send them back from sembawang to chongpang to yishun to katib den rushed down to spartan(late to meet johnsonn for 1.5hrs!xp)...who knows reach thr eric told me 1 go to the pub @ sembawang..diaoz..den when all the way back to sembawang and finally back home!
sorry sot to leave u all behind at tanjong pagar...but i'm shiok winning johnsonn&eric in pool! eric hao lian ah..tink he can help johnsonn challenge me.too bad i m not lousy! haha!white-washed johnsonn in darts too(told u i will blog 4 u to c & me to rememeber de!! =p)
siao havent buy clothes! but i dun even feel like gg out during cny! i nid to sleep,think,eat,plan,mahjong,shit,stratgise,blackjack,drink,dart more den sitting @ pple's house rot!!
the curse of the injuries has extended from my players to myself! Had 2 games in a day. 1stly wif the U18s. Early early in the match kena right hand liao. Not like damn serious but slightly affected my day. cannot catch/finish ball aft which, can't compete in darts at nite, can't use the chopsticks. 2nd game wif the bucks. That canada center is power man but damn smelly! Attack my breast when she couldn't get me off her on defense. But worst thing is she kneed my v big blue-black.can kill man.
But seriously, I tink i'm really sway la. Ytss from anticipated zhen men became fu men to meet AI earlier den i expect. Den unity pri fought so hard to b zhen men, in the end the 2nd rd draw sway like hell! End up i may get kicked out while the fu men in my team sure get into top 4!
I really hope my luck will change in the end yr of rat man! Heng semis aft CNY!
FINALLY, i got 1 whole sunday 2 sleep! Haf been sleepin 4hrs a day from wed!
Really in no mood 4 CNY man! I wish i can stay at home n don't go visitin. 1stly, haven't buy clothes. 2ndly, aft CNY gotta prepare for semis for 2teams at least.. My brain sure can't stop workin de.
I need 2 rest rest rest!
oh ya! I ate the NICEST BAO ever last nite!! It's 1 'you xin de bao'! thank u! ;)
i tink 1 simple word can express my(our) feeling right now:HAPPY! say already mah...must believe BEE!! BEE believe in the team! those who realise they haven't believe BEE earlier, it's still not too late to believe BEE now. everyone may be satisfied already now we are in top4. BEE respect the team's decison of how we'll procced from this stage onwards. we can play 5 more games or we want play more? the team will decide. BEE just want to let the team know this: BEE believe if we still want to fight, we'll still be the toughest opponent around!
still feeling really happy even though it has been 7hrs since we won Christ church & affirm our placing in NZ top4! happy, happy, HAPPY!
didn't sleep well last night. the brain can't seem to stop thinking. no appetite for the whole day.
lady luck still not smiling to us. psm injured her hand, tricia n val still can't play 100%.
but we are lucky enough those who played, played their best.
those who played their best didn't give up.
when the game ended, suddenly i feel so tired&HUNGRY!(hafta thanks candy/yp for the pocky!)
anyway, no need to rush into thinkin about anything 1st. rejoice for the weekend! enjoy the fruits of our hardwork.celebrate this victory! feel proud of the team, feel proud of our dream, feel proud achieving our dream.
happyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappy
BEE'S TEAM WILL STAND STRONG AS A TEAM!
BRING IT ON OPPONENT(S)
WE'LL 'JIANG JUN' YOU!!
WE'LL CONQUER!!