going off for my decidin match in half hour's time. Last chance with the sec 4s. Win good, high chance 4 top 8. Lose i oso nothing to say becos i tink they really never put in sweat n effort tis time. I'm sure if today we lose sure is lose to lousy stamina! #10 walkin on court like joe always believe. #6 scare. Not enuff pple to use. But den again mainly i swear is STAMINA! hope i'm wrong althou i'm v confident wif my predictions of games. Gtg b4 i'm late!
what mood are you most in?ANGRY!! 
you hate stupid people and you are a spaz easy, but its not your fault...its those people! --------------------------------------- took this quiz in facebook. suppose to be freakly accurate! well..i won't say it's not true. i was laughin away when i saw the analysis! i'm sure u know what i mean...pple who know me well sure be aware that i really have low-tolerance for STUPIDITY or BODOH-NESS.then again, i better be wary these days when i say this 2words. i don't wanna appear on the newspaper like the poor teacher on newspaper few days ago. hmm...i tink i'll replace the word 'stupid' with 'coconut'. next time i'll b shouting: freaking hell...how can u b so co-CO-nut! i've never see any1 soooo cooocooonut b4! if u r so coconut, den use ur coconut head to tinkkkk!!! hahaha~~ self-entertained!!!
being angry always, i thot i'll haf high blood pressure but surprisingly/sadly/unfortunately, i'm down wif severe LOW-BLOOD PRESSURE. on medication if not the blood cannot pump to my heart&lungs den... choy choy choy!! doc say i still can exercise but i'm so scare not enuff blood pumped to my heart man...still got game on sat. stressed sia!
ohh!! doesn't this look like my BANANA DAUGHTERS?? so irrrrritaaaatingggg!!! of cos the fatter 1 is _ _ _ _ _ _ _ & the other is _ _ _ _! haha~~
Nationals grouping is out!! we're with UNITY,BEDOK NORTH&SCGS.
NC is always so lucky and got wat i plotted initially: to meet the tie-go huayi which got in!DAMN!
anyway, our's is not too bad a grouping oso la i feel? i tink @ our best, we have 65% chance of winning SCGS and 50% chance of winning BEDOK NORTH. tt's provided we r at our best lah..the sec 4s seems so lazy/tired/unfit to train already and the sec 3s r still so scare to play. how to attain best form this way?? winning UNITY i must say the odds is oni 35%. not becos they r THAT good. it's simply they have 12 players to use while i oni haf 8? sometimes fewer judging from last 2 games. b it any valid reasons, people who r not helping: tricia,siyi, valerie,joyce, jieying sometimes psm,sandra,lydia. the rest so far i'm satisfied wif their performances. nothing to mind abt them. in short, if i can make them attain BEST form in 1week, i tink getting into TOP8 may not b a dream?
well, if i don't win UNITY or get into top8 this time, who knows i may not have the chance to in at least the near further? if everything goes as planned and i hafta leave s'pore, then perhaps this gonna my LAST B div, LAST C div, LAST junior girls& boys. if this is the last, regrets will be junior boys not getting into nationals and my all-time prioritised YTSS didn't get as good result as i expected this yr. if this is my last, i'm glad at least i didn't mislead my girls&boys. it's always comforting to see them mature & getting more guai. if this is my last, definitely parting with my teams will be the hardest thing for me. but who knows, if this is my last, many may joy?
ok...don't tink abt uncertainty 1st. i've more certain,important things on hand which is B div nationals, junior girls nationals and last but not least C div to create a history for KSS gals.
加油TEAMS, 加油 BEE!
Clement told WRS boys: u all don't show that you all want to get into Nat'l top4Joe described JWSS loss: sometimes, the GENERAL wants 2 fight but the warriors doesn't 1 2.Bee despaired over YTSS r/s:GENERAL fought, Warriors fought but our hearts fought too. 我想‘家家（队队）有本难念的经吧’。i suppose we r just 3 coaches who believe so very strongly in our teams. i suppose the results don't always disappoint us but the team's performances will. i suppose we r more concerned abt our players than our parents r concerned abt us.i'm sure every player wanted to fight as hard as we do but just don't know what's stopping them. maybe we can never understand becos we've never been through that. like coaches can never agree with referees, maybe players can never understand with why we ask for so much unless they wanted so much for themselves too.HANG IN THERE COACHES!! WE MUST JIA YOU 2! DON'T GIVE UP!**我还会有机会摆回棋子吗？** **我还会有机会摆回棋子吗？** **我还会有机会摆回棋子吗？** 
i thought this yr is suppose 2 b a gd career yr for chicks. but apparently it isn't a gd 1 for me...esp for the NZ. it's true we achieved our top4 target & got into nationals(this is wat i expected anyway) but bloody hell we lost to the 3=i=most=hated=schools.
we had damn bad luck, so we lost to anderson. =\
we didn't fight hard, and we lost to AI. =(
we fought hard, but we lost to nan chiau. =~(
i really thot the girls have all it takes to win anderson&NC. i'm confident to take them on too. i had it all planned as far as 1yrs 6mths 27days back. but of cos, things don't go smoothly 4 me as usual. i didn't manage to make them all peak mentality. i didn't manage to get them to work 1 heart s me, some i even feel their heart is away from me. i didn't take care of them enuff to even have a full team for this tournament. maybe they'll never noe how strong they actualli can b FULL FORCE, FULL HEARTS.
i admit, i'm very dependant on some of them and i'm disappointed they couldn't b there to fight with me.
of cos i'm sad...it's 1.5yrs of dreams shattered. it's like giving EVERYTHING to ur 1st child and see her fail in life. or rather seeing myself fail.
当所有心血付出流水时，这感觉是难以形容的失落、难过、心痛。。。
fortunately, there's still something comforting this season. i'm very happy to c that my 2 'cars' didn't punk-cek @ 2nd quarter 5:18mins anymore.1 car i'm so worried she won't start engine...in the end i feel she's the oni engine working. the other car's engine seems to b spoilt few games back..luckily she proved that she's still working well. =)
i oso feel the good spirit of some least expected.
THANK ＹＯＵ！
for the rest, it's never too late to start engine. there's still the nationals although i'm realli at a loss s in whether they still 1 2 fight onot. i don't even noe how sad/how well the gals r taking this setback. maybe lao-heng is rite...i failed in communicating wif my gals. i dun understand ｔｈｅｍ at all. i oni noe i just wanted something better for them that i had but maybe i never realli know wat they realli wanted?
it's definitely tougher as a coach than a player. suddenly i feel like callin my coaches to thank them for who i m today.