With the printing biz having some 'controversial issues' recently. fatty tried to divert my attention to coaching and seek comfort in the 'very-well-known-but-he-never see-before-gals-of-my-life'. he knows how much =) they brought me and how =) i was juz months back when i can't stop telling him how great they were.

fatty say: u can win all the best coach award but not appreciate by yr own team also useless
fatty say:i think when u see yr gals grow, improve, do their best u happy liao lo..content..yea!..happy like bird already!

one thing, never tell him wat's happening to the team recently.

in the end...printing+gals=more :(

really 2 tired&sian to find a listening ear or even talked abt it, not even to the dearest queen and bestest ling. i tink for the 1st time ever, i spent the whole evenin wif them w/o mentioning anything abt my players AT ALL.

like fatty say, 'u need a time-out'.
but do i hav that luxury? maybe i juz nid some sleep. too many things coming on me recently. people pass on, financial crisis, problems i never will expect from gals i never will expect, issues in biz. suddenly i lose close ones...literally and metaphorically. pple leaving me in the lurch, pple pulling me out of shit. lost trust in some things/pple, put more trust in some others. have been asking myself these 2 questions recently. did i treasure some things too much, did i treasure some things too little? do i trust too easily?

peng, i'll try my best to save the world...if the world wants to be saved.

yea, someday when i am wiser, when the world's older, when i've learned...
someday when my fight is won, i'll stand in the sun!
but til then, on days while the sun is gone, i'll hang on and wish upon the moon, praying for some days better on these days dark and bitter.
for i believe that fairer days will come....soon.