i thought this yr is suppose 2 b a gd career yr for chicks. but apparently it isn't a gd 1 for me...esp for the NZ. it's true we achieved our top4 target & got into nationals(this is wat i expected anyway) but bloody hell we lost to the 3=i=most=hated=schools.
we had damn bad luck, so we lost to anderson. =\
we didn't fight hard, and we lost to AI. =(
we fought hard, but we lost to nan chiau. =~(
i really thot the girls have all it takes to win anderson&NC. i'm confident to take them on too. i had it all planned as far as 1yrs 6mths 27days back. but of cos, things don't go smoothly 4 me as usual. i didn't manage to make them all peak mentality. i didn't manage to get them to work 1 heart s me, some i even feel their heart is away from me. i didn't take care of them enuff to even have a full team for this tournament. maybe they'll never noe how strong they actualli can b FULL FORCE, FULL HEARTS.
i admit, i'm very dependant on some of them and i'm disappointed they couldn't b there to fight with me.
of cos i'm sad...it's 1.5yrs of dreams shattered. it's like giving EVERYTHING to ur 1st child and see her fail in life. or rather seeing myself fail.
当所有心血付出流水时，这感觉是难以形容的失落、难过、心痛。。。
fortunately, there's still something comforting this season. i'm very happy to c that my 2 'cars' didn't punk-cek @ 2nd quarter 5:18mins anymore.1 car i'm so worried she won't start engine...in the end i feel she's the oni engine working. the other car's engine seems to b spoilt few games back..luckily she proved that she's still working well. =)
i oso feel the good spirit of some least expected.
THANK ＹＯＵ！
for the rest, it's never too late to start engine. there's still the nationals although i'm realli at a loss s in whether they still 1 2 fight onot. i don't even noe how sad/how well the gals r taking this setback. maybe lao-heng is rite...i failed in communicating wif my gals. i dun understand ｔｈｅｍ at all. i oni noe i just wanted something better for them that i had but maybe i never realli know wat they realli wanted?
it's definitely tougher as a coach than a player. suddenly i feel like callin my coaches to thank them for who i m today.